Over the last couple weeks I've been thinking a lot about where I am, or where God has put me in life, right at this moment. I am in the middle of prepping to go to school in Arizona. Can I just say that again?
I am prepping
to go to school in Arizona!!! I truly can't believe it! I would have never guessed that this is where God was going to have me. In fact, I used to say, "I will never move to Arizona...unless God really really wants me to". Haha! I'm telling you, be careful what you say!
But honestly, it's truly amazing to see what God does with your life when you allow Him to take control! Ephesians 3:20-21a in the message Bible says: "
God can do anything, you know-Far more than you could ever imagine or guess or request in your wildest dreams! He does it by not pushing us around but by working within us, His spirit deeply and gently within us." This is so true! Some of the things God does in my life just blow my mind! I look back on the last three years of my life and literally stand dumbfounded by how He has moved in my life and how He has moved me, chiseled me and molded me. The opportunities He has given me and the doors He has opened for me are unbelievable! Things like serving on staff for the high school group at my church, being on the worship team, going to Hungary and Mexico, moving out and receiving my car! It hasn't always been easy, there has been some really hard, lonely times, but He has never left me. Hebrews 6:19 says, "
We have this as a sure and steadfast anchor of the soul, a hope that enters into the inner place behind the curtain." I can personally attest to this scripture, because it is so evident in my life.
My new adventure to Arizona has been a fast process yet a long process all at the same time. There's been a lot of ups and downs. It's
crazy to even look back on the last few months, to see the beginning of this journey and to see where I am now, less than two months away from leaving. I am
SO excited for this journey! To go to school, experience college, a new city, a new state, new people! It's all so exciting! So many opportunities! But I have to be honest, I'm really nervous too, maybe even a little scared. In a way, I'm ok with these feelings though. I mean, would it be normal not to feel this way? I am leaving everything that I am familiar with: my job, my home, my family, friends, my life... to go to everything that I am unfamiliar with: college, a dorm, a new state, new friends, and a new life. While this is all scary, it's also the best thing about it! Last year when I returned from Hungary, I started praying this prayer: God change me constantly, let me me not be comfortable, keep me uncomfortable because it is the scariest, yet most amazing feeling I've ever experienced, and I love it! Lord, move me when I don't want to be. Whatever you do, don't let me be the same. Let my life glorify you." I may not pray it as often as I did, I still mean it. I want to live my life in the death zone! To live in the dangerous wonder of knowing God And I am so excited to see what God has in store for me next!
.... "what's next Papa?"
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